It seems appropriate to blog about my free time since it is really the reason that I'm here again. I've been done with my class and my grading for over a week, but I've kept pretty busy since then. It doesn't seem like I've had a lot of plain, old-fashioned, do nothing down time. So tonight I found myself with that kind of time, and also some nervous energy. The combination was...well...interesting, and pretty productive! I picked up a prescription, folded some laundry, tidied my room, tidied the kitchen, cleaned my toilet, put soap in the hand soap dispensers, took the recycles out to the garage, etc. Then I sat down with my computer. I don't think that I'm very good at surfing the web...maybe it's that I don't know where to look for good/interesting content, but I just end up going to all of my usual haunts, maybe checking out some places I don't go very often, and then I'm done. If none of my blog buddies have posted anything new, if I don't have new/interesting e-mail, etc. then there's not much to spend time on! Anyway, I just think that I need to almost take a class or read a book on relaxation and/or meditation. I don't seem to be very good at being still and quiet. I like noise around me (except when I sleep...then I wear earplugs to keep the noise out!), and I think that maybe there's a sort of guilt that comes with doing nothing...that nagging feeling that you should be doing SOMETHING instead...washing your car, paying a bill, cleaning the bathroom, writing a birthday card, feeding the homeless, etc. Hopefully I can find some balance in my life...that I can be really focused and productive when I need to be, and then allow myself to really relax and enjoy the free time that comes along! We'll see.....
